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Nicotine
I hate smoking.
I really do.
I have tried to quit more times than I can count.
And I always fail.
I did the patch.
I did the gum.
Tami's mom gave me a little plastic cigarette with nicotine plugs.
I just keep giving in and freaking out when I go too long without a smoke.
And I don't want to smoke anymore.
It actually makes me nauseus every time I light up.
One out of five times I light up, I have to fight back vomiting.
I caugh constantly.
I am out of breath most of the time.
It stinks, makes my breath stink, and costs a fortune.
I just want to stop. I think I am going to try again but this time I am going to FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.
With everything else going on in my life, the last thing I need is to waste time and money on cigarettes.
And there are other things that drive me nuts.
Like the people who run tobacco companies. If I was standing next to one of those guys on the street in his $3000.00 suit and smoking my brains out, I gurantee he would be looking at me with disgust. Like I am some kind of idiot, but keep on smoking moron you are paying for my new beach house in the Bahamas.
I want a beach house in the Bahamas.
But I don't have any addictive substance to hook people on so they give me an endless supply of money for killing them and lowering their quality of life.
I have a bad chest cold right now and I am still smoking. And it hurts. Physically causes pain every drag.
But that doesn't stop me.
Wah Wah Wah, poor me. Too stupid and weak willed to stop paying for something I hate. It's like video games. lol
I hate most video games now. They are stupid shallow, over priced and I almost always feel ripped off after paying for one, but I just keep doing it.
So the video game makers keep making the same insipid crap since they know all of us entertainment junkies will throw our money at their feet any time they pay some news site to tell us to.
Maybe today is not such a good day.
I've been told that nicotine is more addictive than heroin. Since withdrawel with heroin is more painful there's some balance in a sick sort of way.
Switch to ultra light cigarettes and start rationing yourself you a specific number per day, then start slowly decreasing how many you smoke. That's what worked for me.
I smoke now, still, because Vickie finds it attractive. I did actually quit while we were together, but when I got my wisdom teeth taken out she bought me a pack to help me calm down... and down the slippery slope I went.
I bought then BEFORE he went into surgery. Geesh, Quentin made it sound like I was trying to give him Dry Sockets!
Yeah. I find it attractive. It's sick, I know. But, if he honestly wants to quit, I back it 100%.... maybe he could just hold the cigarette every now and again for old times sake... LOL!
Good luck on quitting, Kevin! They say in some extreme cases, the drug Wellbutrin can help.. maybe talk to your doctor!
I think Felix nailed it.
I need to get me some heroin!
Get addicted, and then use my company health plan to get myself off of heroin!
I can deal with Pain.
I can't deal with having my mind flip flop over and over thinking aobut a damned legal little stick of paper with some ground up salad stuffed in it.
I don't know if this will help but when Wes quit smoking he started using dip. After dipping for about 1 year he realized that instead of getting in trouble for dipping at work that he could actually bear to swallow the juice--yuck!! It has now been five days since he has dipped because with the price of gas we can no longer afford dip. Good luck. The wellbutrin is a good idea too.