No complaints! No Regrets!

I'm holding strong to that!

I'm lovin my life.  And to be honest it's not like it has sucked at any point in the last  many (7-8 at least) years. Bumps yes.

Hopes that were a little too high yes. But all in all I am still lovin it. Through and through.

But Kristina is is a serious monkey wrench. I just wasn't expecting that. I figured you know, meet some people get out a lttle bit. Not so much get my groove back but give my groove a hug and make sure things are still cool between us right. Well...it's almost too much. And that's about the only way I can explain it.

Sometimes faith is....evasive. I think that's all I want to say about that.

And I got some news about my uncle that I don't really like, but there isn't anything that can be done about it.

I have to gather my thoughts and put  something down so it can be there. I don't want to miss my chance.

Uhg. I have alot I want to say but I don't want to just blab. I want to organize it first and I can't seem to get that going. I just don't know how to express some of the stuff I am living and you guys know I love to talk! Especially about me! And I feel obliged to but I can't get it in order, at least an order I want.

I have never felt so special and so appreciated and so myself as I do right now.

I have never had so many friends spread so far apart in my life as I do right now.

I have never felt as connected to the world and to life as I do right now!

I don't want it to stop. EVER. If I die tomorrow I'll be ok with it. Cause I can't complain about my life. I wasn't cheated, I wasn't disadvantaged, I wasn't held back. I got to make my choices and I am not going to regret them. Cause I am here now. And here right now, is a seriously awesome spot for me. I fit right in it like hand and glove. It's a bit snug, but that's just cause I am fat. Otherwise it is perfect.

I know I am rambling. I just wanted to get that out of my head. Not like it's going to stop cause it's out, but at least I might get a little respite from it for a bit.

I love you guys. I hope you are doing ok. I'm gonna get back to my thang!