Something Beautiful

So I got inspired to write something that is beautiful in hindsight.

Several years ago when I got to live out my dream and I started working for a video game company, all I wanted in the world was to share that with my Dawg. I wanted my boy to roll with it and throw down with the rest of us.

I am of course talking about Q, and I talked and talked and he listened and listened, and eventually we were heading toward something like agreement. Q was coming out a relationship and he wanted what most people want. He wanted validation, he wanted change, he was inspired to reach for new things and I was excited for him.

I tried to talk him into moving to Florida and filling a position we had for IT/Webmaster/Scripting programmer. It was his dream job from his own admissions. He got to use his current skills, advance them, and learn new skills pointed in the arena of video game development. It's what we always dreamed of as kids.

I talked and talked and finally everyone was in agreement, my bosses were ready for him to move down, and I was ready to house him till he got his feet under him, and he said, "Let me talk to my family about it".

COOL! No not cool. A week later he decided he didn't want to leave his family and friends in Ky.

I knew what he was really saying so on the company phone at like 10 pm I  just flat out asked him.

"Is it because of HER? DO you think you still have a shot with HER? You don't want to leave Ky cause you know it will pretty much destroy any chance of getting her back?"

To which he very quietly said, "Yeah kinda, but I really can't leave my family either, I just can't".

I knew that family was important, but video games and adventure were calling. I still wonder if he ever actually talked to his family or not, or whether he just decided that he didn't want to be out of the possible Vickie loop.

So needless to say I spent the next hour chewing his ass off about how it was over and he should move on leave it alone, and it was starting to get scary that he was focusing so much on HER and that he didn't even know who she was anymore cause so much time had passed blah blah blah.

 He didn't give up.  He didn't give in.  He held onto his dreams and he persued HER. And now she is his wife.

ROCK THE FUCK OUT MAN!

I will always love you, and I will always respect you that you went after your dream and you achieved it. It's no differant than my chasing the video game thing. I saw something I knew I wanted and I went after it. You did the same and no matter what happens from this on, even if you and Vickie go down in screaming ugly divorce flames, it doesn't matter because you went after your dream and for however long you got it. You did it. You succeeded and got to taste that which burned inside you the hottest.

Congratulations dude. Congratulations!