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Herkin, Herkin, Herkin, You are made out of wind.
Herkin, Herkin, Herkin, You're deadly when you spin!
Kill me in the mornin, kill me in my sleep.
Herkin ,Herkin, Herkin, you're such a *bleepin bleep*!

Well side from cooky Pat having to back his crazy truck up about 200 political yards it looks like the "W" is maintaining a completely "hands off" stance on making any statements about his gravy boat making terrorist statements.
And it pisses me off.
I voted for this guy, he ran a platform of honesty integrity and doing what needed to be done for the good of the nation, moral authority and so on.
Well all I have seen happen is 1800 dead patriots, gas prices rising so high so fast I may be walking to work in a couple of weeks, and an endless stream of his "base" doing/saying whatever the hell they please without fear of recrimination from the public at large or any "standards" the administration theoretically has.

He's turning into a big fat liar. I would now put him in the same boat with Bill Clinton. Just a complete SHAM!
The difference to me is that Bill was a liar and a creep but his lying creepness mainly had to do with chasin' some tang!
W's lying creepness has to do with giving billions of dollars of our money to his close friends, and letting the OIL CARTEL do as it pleases.

Why hasn't "W" made any public threats of opening the strategic oil reserves?
It worked during the Clinton admin.
Gas tarted going high and fast and several memebers of congress andthe president started talking aobut it and boom, prices leveled and fell a bit.

I remember it. I know some of you do too.
I think "W" doesn't do it cause he doesn't want his buddies in the oil biz to lose any cash. Simple as that. He came from big oil, he is in bed with big oil to the degree that his VP IS big oil.
His weener is dripping sweet crude as we speak I would wager!

I am wondering if there is going to be any backlash, after the Iraq veterans all get home, and find out that it is nearly impossible to buy a house drive a car or get a good job.
They spent 1-2 years technically not working a normal job, so human resources people are already talking about "post traumatic stress" employees and that they are being told to be gunshy of "recent hero" applicants who may go bonkers in the company lounge and cut someones heart out when a car backfires outside.
YEEEEEHAW!
Lets send em off to war, and then totaly ignore'em when they come back.
I've already seen 5 stories in the mainstream media about Iraq veterans coming home and being broke and homeless within 6 months, and being in a position where the only option they had was to re-inlist in the military and get sent right back to Iraq.
Yeah, OBVIOUSLY "W" has the soldiers on his mind.
While congress is busy giving itself a raise and simultaneously closing bases, and trying to cut back on death benefit spending on military personell killed in "non combat" situations, and DAMN IT ALL EVEN FRIENDLY FIRE ACCIDENTS!
They actually want to LOWER the death benefit if a soldier dies in a non combat event EVEN IF IT IS A GUN THAT KILLS THEM!
THAT'S TOTAL BULLSHIT!

So I am getting more and more angry about all of this, and everyone around me keeps throwing me these statements like "How are you surprised by all of this, they are all politicians, they are all dirty" and "Of course it's about money, that's all they care about"!

THIS PISSES ME OFF EVEN MORE!
Honestly, if you are that cynical and things are that bad then you need to pick up a megaphone in one hand and a rifle in the other and start asking people to "WAKE UP" and smell the need for revolution.
I don't think things are bad enough to revolt but god help me I would if I thought it was needed.
I really would.

That is what I have promised to do by agreeing to be an american, and believing in The Constitution of The United States of America!
It actually means something! OK Vigilence against oppression and tyranny is not just some catchy phrase meant to impress the chicks!
It is a promise and a declaration of intent given to us by the founders, as a promise that we can and should take charge of our nation at any point that a "group" or self realized "class" decides that it is no longer truly ours to govern and benefit from.

Yes the founders were considered "upper class" in the time when they created this noble experiment, but they also specificly designed the system so that the common man, joe nobody, YOU AND I, can and should take the bull by the horns and wrestle it's ass to the ground
and brand that sucker with the red hot poker of ownership as Americans!
I mean it.
That's what the system was designed for. To leave enough personal rights to the common citizen that it is difficult to actually turn the system into an autocracy at any point down the road.

OK, I think I get the hint.
Maybe it really is the case that most people are too stupid and too apathetic and would rather worry about "Who is going to have sex with who on the next season of American Idle.
Ok.
Once I feel it is bad enough I'll let you all know what country I am going to move to.
It would be easier than trying to actually affect positive change in Mc'Merica!

Something popped into my head today.
Just interesting.
Maybe I'll google on it a bit and see what happens.
BUT anyway, here it is.

Our system, our main system of life, is the planet earth, and the sun in relation.
Our system is a closed system for the most part. Self sustaining. Self reliant, but for the sun. Right?
Lets just all say right and get on to the next bit.

In a closed(relatively) system, you pretty much need the differant parts working together to maintain balance of the system.
So plants need water and sun, animals need plants and each other.
Weather contributes to all of this as well as geophysical aspects of the planets motion and so on.
Interdependant.

What does the earth use crude oil for?

It makes it.
It probably needs it for something.

So what happens when you use up a majority of that and replace it with like, water or something.
When an oil well is pumped they fill in the gap with water right. Pump water in while pumping oil out so that they are not just creating giant potential sink holes underground.
We know the make up and density and properties of petroleum are vastly different than water, so what impact can that have on the geological scale?
What is it that oil did geologically if anything?
I'm not saying it had to be doing something, but in general we know that interdependant closed systems don't really just create garbage without a way to use it. Otherwise they would eventually out pave themselves and collapse.
And the earth is a pretty solid system.

So what happens to the actual planet when we use up all the oil.
It'll take thousands of years to create more oil. If not longer.
So what did the planet as a system use oil for that it will be missing?

Lets just be cute about it and ask, does the earth use oil as a tectonic lubricant? Could we end up with more earthquakes, bigger, stronger, and so on with no grease on the wheels?
Will the planet lose mass over the long run?
If you chop of f a piece of a wood block, and burn it, but keep the smoke and gasses inside a bubble around the wood block, the block loses mass even though the gasses are still there inside the bubble right?
So what happens to the earth when it's mass changes?
Even on a small scale you could be looking at big changes over millions of years in the gravity of the earth/moon cycle right?

I don't know.
Just curious.
Like I said, popped in my head.

OK, this is bad. This is just INSANE!

Pat Robertson has officially declared himself and his 700 club as terrorists.
Advocating violence based on his religous and political slant is EXTREMISM, and he has openly affronted ALL Muslims, and Communists.

"launching pad for communist infiltration and muslim extremism across the continent"-OH MY GOD, this dude is WHACKED!
He obviously has 40% alzhiemers and is convinced he is still living in part with the Mccarthy era "RED MENACE".

Not only is he advocating violence, he is talking about covert assasination of a political ruler. It doesn't matter if the ruler is a despot or dictator.
If the people of that country rise up and ask for US assistance to overthrow an oppressive regime, WE WILL HELP THEM!

If they don't ask then we SHOULDN'T DO JACK!

You know what Pat, by your way of thinking we should also Nuke the hell out of Canada since they just tried to "covertly destroy" our beef supply and starve us all to death.
Someone needs to publicly give Mr. Robertson a SERIOUS SMACKDOWN! And Honestly it should be the President, or the Vice President, or the Majority Speaker of the House and Senate.
He totally deserves it. He is absolutely going against the whole point of WHY american soldiers are dying, and pointing at OIL as the reason we are doing anything, and while I don't fully support the administrations reasons for doing things I at least think they are more tactfull and responsible about what they say.

Pat Robertson in one swoop, HAS VALIDATED EVERYTHING THAT MUSLIM EXTREMISTS THINK ABOUT AMERICA, and given them the public fuel they need to RECRUIT MORE TERRORISTS, in venezuela and around the world.

Oh man. I am just so PISSED OFF about this right now I can't stand it.
This is insane. What was he thinking.
Oh yeah, I know.

He was thinking he can do or say whatever the hell he wants without regard, cause he believes in Jesus, and that makes him bulletproof.

So if Pat Robertson is a moral authority and religous leader in our country and he is in step with what God and Jesus want from us as americans, that must mean that Jesus would request the assasination of a political leader he doesn't agree with RIGHT?

Sure, I am positive Mr. "Jesus is my Business" Roberts asked himself, "What Would Jesus Do?", and the answer he heard back in his head from Jesus, (since Pat has more access to the holy than us normal joes) was "Hey Pat, I'd Call for the Covert Assasination of anyone who threatened my ability to buy cheap ass gasoline for my pimped out escalade"

Oh my god.
Jesus is soooo Metal!

What an awesome weekend.
Friday I was a basket case. Just too much stress and too much worrying and I had nearly worked myself into a breakdown.
Of course Tam fixed all that with a beatiful little card and a ginormous hug.
Then the whole weekend went great.
She went out with Amber and recharged her batteries, and I did work on the house with Richard, and played with the boys a bit.
Most of the weekend the boys spent more time with Tami, than me. That's just how it works out sometimes. Especially with this house work.
Last weekend I took the monkies out for breakfast on sunday. Just us.
This weekend I did nothing, but they spent time running around with Tam and Amber so they still had a fun weekend. I did spend some time playing Katamari Damaci with them.
We love that game. It's insane, and adorable all at the same time.
I am so in love with Tami Randall, I just can't say it enough.
She is the sunshine in my life.
We watched the notebook sunday night, and that's what I want. I want us to grow old together and die in our sleep holding hands. That's what I want from my life. To grow old and die sleeping next to the woman I love.
Hopefully that growing old together part will be allowed to happen.

Oh boy.
Aaron has two doctors appointments. One Friday, one Monday.
Both for behavior not cancer.
He's getting a bit better. His fits are more managable, not as severe, and a little less often.
Though his violent actions and lying are still out of control.
Lets see for this week, he dumped a bucket of rocks and sand into the air conditioner, choked someone, and bashed a two year old girl in the chest with a chair hard enough to knock her down and give her a big bruise on her side.

The punishment is killing him a bit. And yes it is a bit harsh, but something has to be done.
He is confined to his bed for this week except for school,homework, dinner, and bath time, and bathroom runs. If he is not doing one of those things he is supposed to be in his bed.
Yeah say what you want. You don't have to live the reality of this child doing horrible things to people and wondering how long it will be until he finally hurts someone in a way that requires medical attention if not more.

Thanks to the master of webness I may just yet be able to post images in my blogs and keep peoples fully updated on whats going on.
W00T!

Let's see.

YEAH baby that worked great.

Oh Aaron isn't bald anymore. his hair has grown back nicely.

And here is a picture of my sweety!

She's so cute.

Well I finally have an issue. With work.

For the record this post will contain no inapropriate disclosures of any kind. Just general information.

I have these diagrams I have to animate of a circuit. The circuit image has to be rather large 700 pixels wide by 1200 pixels tall to be exact.
And then it has to have an additive overlay animation that "glows" the sections of circuits as they power on and off during operation of the circuit functions.
Now storing a 700x1200 jpg is a bit pricey when the budget for each loaded page across the net is supposed to be 750kb. I knocked that down a bit by vectorizing the core circuit image from 621kb down to 67 kb with negligable degredation of image quality.
My issue is the glow animations. I can't output them as vectors. The post render effect won't work through the mesh to vector converter since the converter plugin doesn't access the video post render routines in any way.

I refuse to hand create vector based glows because I have over 27 of these unique screens with glow animations and that option is just not acceptable.

So I am banging around a few alternatives.
#1. Talk to the course writer and SME about size. Do we really need the glow or can it be a sheesier, crappier looking overlay. Then I could vectorize it but it would not be whiz-bang like it is now.
#2. Isolate the frames and render them out as individual image layovers and compile them in swf to do what I need.
This is not a tremendous amount of work since the most complex animation only has 10 frames and I don't have to do any new work other than compiling. The only problem is that size may not really be effectively reduced since I will still be saving some larger stage images as a full 700x1200 index anyway. So the savings is questionable.
#3. Tell the customer that noone really needs to know about, or cares about, these circtuitry diagrams anyway so we should just drop them altogether. HEHEHE yeah right.

Oh well. At least it is an interesting problem and not just some "lack of resources" issue or something.

Sammy is the new kitten.

Sammy is very cute because Sammy is half stripey tabby, and half Siamese.

Sammy is also UTTERLY AND COMPLETELY INSANE!

Sammy is already starting to annoy me.
Though the kids love him and Tam adores him and he seems to like me, and he adores Tami and the kids, some of Sammy's exuberance at being a fully clawed and tooth-filled kitten is rubbing me the wrong way.

Most of all his inability to leave me the hell alone when I sit down at my computer to do things. I know he doesn't understand that my new location at this wildly humming flickering bit-o-kit is in fact functional and that I am trying to accomplish some goal or another by being there.

I know all he sees is that I have positioned myself in such a way as to make attacking and biting my feet more of a direct challenge to him.
And he is ever prepared to accept and meet that challenge.

But last night was somewhat of the straw that was being placed atop a camel who was already a tad overloaded and had back problems to begin with. Probably a ruptured disk intruding on his spinal column and pinching his cyatic nerve.
That poor camel.
Anyway, not only did Sammy begin attacking and biting my feet, he also figured out something he hadn't up to that point tried.

CLIMBING MY FREAKING LEG LIKE A TREE!

Now this new sport was terribly exciting to him I am forced to assume because no matter how many times I gently pried him loose from my lap he diligently scaled my calf and thigh again within seconds.
I tried to thwart him with some simple slight of foot and during several of his "run ups" I would pivot my foot upward and he would smack into the sole of my foot and be forced to reposition himself. This of course was folly on my part. It was no more a solution to Sammy's zeal than GWB's energy plan is a solution to the gas crisis.
So the event went on and I put him on the floor and corrected him no less than a dozen times when he, in true extreme sportsman fashion decided to "take it to the next level".
By this he decided to eliminate the middle man and ignore the calf muscles entirely and would instead jump as high as his little legs would allow and grapple his razor sharp talons directly into the soft fleshy inner thigh of my leg and proceed to climb the rest of the way up.

I knew if I did not put a stop to this immediately, my scrotum would suffer, and suffer dearly.
So I cut Sammy in half with the large industrial scissors that were laying on the desk.
Oh wait, I only imagined that part.
No what I actually did was swat at him with a whimpering yelp that made him flee off into another room where he began tormenting some innanimate object or another into submission.

Sammy is cute.
But not that cute.

I'll post pictures AS SOON AS I FIND SOME STORAGE THAT ISN'T THAT CHEAP FREE ACCOUNT CRAP! hehehe.

So all 4 children made it off to school today and we have a trend.

Three of these children each lunch and one does not. So the trend today was LUNCH ISSUES.

Aaron forgot his lunchbox in the classroom and thusly charged credit to eat the school supplied lunch.

Christian forgot his lunchbox in his class AFTER he ate lunch.

Brandon forgot his lunchbox ON the schoolbus ride home.

Dylan doesn't each lunch at school since his pre-k lets out at 11 am.

So we have some lunchbox issues to work on.

Otherwise it sounds like the monkies had a fine day.

My day could have been better. Constant networking issues have plagued any attempt to get corrections made to one of the training programs and it actually caused the absolute skrogging of one file. Just totaly lost it. I saved. It errored. File gone.
I had to copy a back up and correct it and then wait around testing the network conntection until it finally came back up.
Sheesh.
I hate computers.